Essays

A Kingdom Within

My number one priority has always been creating a sense of home and safety within my own beating heart.

Ex Boarders Sharing Circle

A space for those navigating the impact of boarding school, for healing, connection, and being seen & heard.

Resistance is Relationship

To resist something is to be in constant contact with it. You're holding it in place, even if the grip is unconscious.

A Battle With My Old Self

It's not about dragging the old self forward. It's about becoming trustworthy enough that the old self can finally let go.

React or Respond?

Triggers will always arise; we might as well learn to meet them in ways that create our lives consciously.

A Check-In

From time to time I deactivate my social media as a kind of purification — stepping back to recalibrate what energies I'm in relationship with.

The Boy and Alduin: The World-Eater

On myth, memory, and the sacred art of adventure

A journey through shadow, myth, and memory — where gaming, trauma, and the soul's quest for wholeness become one sacred adventure.

Shadow Work · Men's Work

The Shame Spell: And How to Break It

A poetic and psychological exploration of shame, childhood wounding, and the power of integrating the inner critic.

Shadow Work

The Magician's Crutches

Cracked open, alone, and on crutches—I climbed the Tor to meet the Magician in me. This is that story.

Carl Jung · Shadow Work

Torch in the Labyrinth

I've been confronting a lot in myself recently. Things I buried. Things I was gaslit out of feeling—by the world, by others.

Shadow Work

The Labyrinth In Her Eyes

It began quietly—not with fireworks or fanfare, but with an eye gaze that felt like it stretched to eternity. The world stood still...

Integrating The Shadow Feminine

I remember at an Ayahuasca ceremony, during the sharing circle at the end, one man said, "I've always tried to understand..."

Carl Jung · Shadow Work

Standing in My Truth

Hey everyone,

The Weight of the Circle

A leader is born out of those ashes — a phoenix rising through the trials of destruction and renewal, crowned not by title but by the circle of people around the fire.

Boarding On Insanity

The Trailer — An Upcoming Documentary on Boarding School Trauma

An intimate tapestry of memoirs from a three-day shadow work retreat at Sambogaya, Glastonbury — the upcoming documentary on boarding school trauma, narrated by Piers Cross.

Dissociation

A long journey home, wading through waste lands — marching through the cave I fear to tread, where love proves braver than fear.

The Legacy of Boarding Schools

Understanding the Impact of Boarding Schools on Mental Health and how to Heal from it.

Boarding School · Shadow Work

My Voice Returned

For years I used to hide my voice. I remember once as a kid I was going to sing a solo in front of the whole school including the...

Boarding School

The Last War

A meteorite hits the earth's surface. Everything you once knew perishes. What do you do in your last moment as your life flashes...

The Inner Classroom

There is a realm. It is a classroom. It is inhabited by twenty to thirty kids. There are no parents. It is a vaguely anarchist realm...

Boarding School

It's All You Man

'You haven't met yourself yet. But the advantage to meeting others in the meantime is that one of them may present you to...'

Have You Ever Loved So Much?

The world shines so bright but I fear I cannot reach out to touch her. Is it ok if I smile at you? Just a sideways smirk? I once met a...

The Light of Guidance

The past several nights I had been wading through a terrifying, and intense darkness, the moon guiding me. I'm out of it for now...

Reconditioning the Mind and Sense of Self

I want to talk briefly about the nature of trauma, how it holds us in a low vibrational frequency, how our very own mind can trick us...

Shadow Work

Boarding School Survivor

Hey guys. I felt the call to write to you. I've been going through a lot of deep healing this Solstice. I wonder how many of my posts...

Boarding School · Shadow Work